living with depression

Monthly Archives: June 2019

It doesn’t seem to matter how well I sleep or not I am always drained and tired. Subsequently it’s not helping my mood and no matter what coping tactics I use I either end up crying or lose my temper.

It’s difficult to cope with two puppies even though they are so happy and loving as I find it too much at times. On the other side of the coin they give me a reason to get up each morning. Our eldest dog is 6 years old and is a rescue dog which we took on two years ago. The first four years of her life were in the Newcastle Dog and Cat Shelter as people kept taking her back. Cassie can be annoying but we couldn’t take her back as we love her too much.

The kittens are coming along nicely and very alert, they are used to us and the dogs now and ‘mummy’, Peggy-Sue, trusts us all. They are a good weight and as of today they are in a cat litter box with a fleece blanket on the floor. It seemed the easiest option to get them down in safety and easy to get to by Peggy-Sue. They are nicknamed ‘Boris’ who is black, ‘Houdini’ who is cream and grey, ‘Tigger’ who is a pale ginger and cream colour and ‘Snookums’ who is mostly cream with some grey.


Life isn’t really getting any easier and I’m not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. It just feels like we are trying to swim against the tide which is leaving me tired all of the time. I wish we could go away for at least a week but in reality that’s not going to happen until September / October unless a minor miracle happens.

It’s just over three months since we won our court case and still waiting for a compromise of getting our money. The solicitor of the defendant is playing really awkward so in my last letter I stated that if the cheque wasn’t made out to me I would go back to court and wouldn’t close the writ. He wants me to pay £80 to £150 admin charge just to get a cheque made out to me even though he knows that I have every right to do so.

Rick had a hearing test today after months of me nagging then booking an appointment online after the referral from our doctor. His hearing is bad enough to warrant hearing aids but it could have been much worse. Now Rick has something new to complain about particularly as it’s an 8 week wait until he goes back to the hospital.

One bit of good news recently has been that the minister at the local church I used to be a member off is moving away to Blackburn. It sounds like she has been diplomatically given a shove to move on. I’m not surprised as she has accused people of being bullies, racist, having anger issues and even a woman hater in at least one case. This is all because people have dared to stand up to her when they haven’t agreed with her. She won’t like it where she’s going because people won’t like her attitude.

One of our cats was pregnant and had her kittens over the weekend. They are all healthy and we already have homes for at least two of them. We know we can trust the people who want the kittens as they are friends and they love the cats they already have.